This prompt is a hard one, as it brought back memories of long ago, when I was deep in the rabbit hole of depression. I absolutely did not like myself very much, for a multitude of reasons. I did not see myself as much of a valuable person, although I know I am dearly loved by my family and always had plenty of loving.
I fell far too often into the trap of comparing myself to others and feeling quite insufficient. I am humble and introverted, and would compare myself to those that are loud and extroverted and are “the life of the party”, or I would wish I was a naturally gifted athlete. I would wish I was more naturally confident to have a random conversation with a strangger. I would wish taht I was not deaf or needed to wear glasses. All that wishing and comparing does no one, no one any good!
Nowadays, I have become extremely content with who I am and am progressively becoming. I like being humble and careful with the words I choose, as most of the people I admire in my life are humble and of simple means and choose their words carefully when conversing. Admittedly, I do not go out much, and that does harm my conversational ability, which is something I can control and improve upon. Although, I am not the biggest fan of Starbucks coffee, maybe I should go there on a more regular basis, so I can hear new voices and maybe strike up a conversation.
On being athletic, almost anyone can improve upon their ability to move etter and produce force more effectively. That starts with weight training, doing some sort of plyometrics, and carrying load. When I do my weekly rucks, my gait feels much smoother and I feel like I could sprint across a field or parking lot at a moment’s notice. That is something in my control, and doing something about it feels much better than comparing.
As for being deaf, well I have a cochlear implant and the hearing device is marvelous. I can hear virtually every sound and know the sounds of conversations travel through sheetrock walls, so I am unintentionally eavesdropping on bits of conversation daily. It is a true blessing and something I do not regret one bit. As for those glasses, man, it is all about finding the right pair that represents your lifestyle and I have found that aviators ar the perfect frames for me.
Perseverance 
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